This is an update for an ongoing series of articles regarding my health journey. If you would like more context, you can read the previous articles here:
The significant gains acquired through my 62 days No Fap and 44 days Keto/OMAD/Candida fasting journey have not come without significant challenges.
Old memories of former habits and feelings have started resurfacing, as if some old neurons are checking in to see if I still need those unused dopamine receptors.
One day I suddenly and vividly remembered the frozen pizzas I bought only a few times from when I worked at a supermarket back then, which was the height of my binge eating career.
I don’t miss the chocolates and chips anymore, but I reminisced on next door’s Pizza Hut bread sticks, and the steak sandwiches from the delis in the area.
But these ghost memories aren’t only occurring with food; It’s happening with my love life too.
You know the type. It’s those feelings you get about the girl you fell in love with but thought you were over her because she’s bad for you and you fell in love with someone else after her, but now it’s clear as day that you were never over her.
But this is what I mean by Purifying The Subconscious, because the prolonged abstaining from sensory pleasures will grant me a face-to-face with my deeply retained or repressed desires.
It is then up to me to observe and allow them to pass as I ask myself, by the time I complete my training reaching a year on my streaks from now, will I still desire these things? Would the feelings fall away?
Would I have raised my baseline?
I reflected in my last health update that I had always crumbled right before the Day 30 mark during my past bouts on the Keto diet, and I was only able to succeed so well this time because I had redirected my off-menu urges with the much safer dark chocolate and almond butter option.
By the way, Health Tip: almonds are very high in oxalates, so eating them over repeated days was probably the source of my digestion issues.
But on average I don’t stray too far from my calorie limit and one meal setting anymore. I go through the same four day rotation of assorted veggies, fish, meat, or egg protein, and healthy fats in seeds, oils, coconut, and butter.
And as I begin to deprogram from sugar, I am also starting to drift away from standard sex.
I’ve come across a new sexual lifestyle called Karezza.
Many of it’s practitioners may also be invested in more spiritual endeavors (AKA something you would call “new age” or “woo woo”), but allow me to not be so esoteric and simply break down the typical ways we have sex today.
Average sex is still procreation focused sex. It is only because of the illusions brought on with the use of contraception that we falsely believe we have engineered recreational sex.
But this isn’t true. Truly, it is still quite juvenile for a man to release what he could very well use to start a family into an unceremonious latex bag. Likewise it is even worse for women, as they actively manipulate their hormones to prevent inception.
I have personally not yet practiced Karezza, but it appeals to me because I am very interested in semen retention, but I also know that common sex and orgasm is more of a release of tension rather than long-lasting and sustainable satisfaction.
At it’s worst, I have heard average sex dubbed as “female assisted ejaculation”, and I wholeheartedly agree with that description.
In short, Karezza is a non-orgasm focused sexual practice in which Oxytocin and other pleasure chemicals are maintained and multiplied through sustained sensuality without any of the crashing resulting from orgasm. It has especially been used to revitalize dead bedrooms in marriages, with repeated orgasms being the culprit of declining interest in long-term relationships, as told in Marnia Robinson’s book Cupid’s Poisoned Arrow (I have not read it yet, though).
More on this in the future, but to return to our point, I realized this new paradigm has raised my baseline when I compared these two sex practices while reflecting on my feelings for my old flame.
Despite her red flags, I would still be interested in standard procreation sex, as a means for closure (or just a really good hate-f–k).
But because of her red flags, I would not be interested in Karezza recreational sex with her because it is far too intimate, and she has negative energies that I do not want her to share or combine with me from her.
See the difference?
With both food and sex, I have refrained and practiced self-control, and it has now come to a point where I require a higher quality source to indulge in those behaviors.
Even if I wanted sugar again, I would much rather find a gourmet or home-baked option rather than the average store bought junk.
And now, my future sexual partners require the right energy, and will not used as my one-way need to get-off.
I am truly curious to see how much more my body will reveal its inner cravings, and what my baseline appetite will be after a year of this training program as I embark on this quest to know myself and develop my character.
See you on the Far Side – Monk Moon Base
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